Mood: Fallen Leaves and Freaking Myself Out.

It's that time of year again: the time where I remember this blog exists and reappear to narrate my masochistic attempts to scare myself silly.

Welcome, one and all. October is literally next week, and it's time for me to plot out my horror reads. And watching. And listening.

This is a lifestyle, okay? One does not simply start reading a spooky story on October 1 and assume one has set the right mood for the season.

One must prepare.

Mood: Striped Socks and Sunlight Through Kitchen Windows.

I always want to be more than who I feel I am at the moment.

There seems to be some key formula to being a well-rounded, confident adult that I lack. Everyone else posts YouTube videos with impeccable eyeliner, link arms with a well-matched significant other, know the right way of matching patterns that seem to clash on even the most open minded mannequin, and - of course - cook dishes that their plethora of lovely, unaging friends coo over at their weekly dinner parties.

At least, that is how the world looks from the vantage point of my Instagram feed.

And I know it's not true, that everyone from the most enviable of Buzzfeed producers to that one friend who always seems to be jetting off to Hawaii is just trying to figure the world out. But that doesn't stop me from feeling that there are some things I could be doing more of and maybe those things are what keep the gray cloud over my head and the sunshine from pooling into the cold floorboards that line my heart.

Like cooking.

Mood: Sun's Out, Spooky Scary Skeletons Out (My #31HorrorFilms31Days Shortlist)

To the one loyal reader of this blog, I apologize.

You know who you are.

For the rest of my invisible audience: hi, I'm Kaye and believe it or not, I am a big baby when it comes to the terrible, creepy and downright evil.

Mood: Feeling Fall and Feeling Fine.

...That may be the most nonsensical post title I've written to date.

Anyway, it's been a while. The hellish season of extreme heat has had to crawl back under its rock. I honestly don't know why I used to be a huge fan of summer, but now I can assure you I've seen the light and gladly welcome the season of apples, pumpkin spice, crisp sunlight and haunted houses with open arms.

That's right. It's finally autumn!

Rejoice, rejoice, and drag out all your sweaters. But don't wear them all at one time.

Okay. So. New season means a seasonal wishlist, which means stuff that I want to do because it feels like the thing to do this season but probably will forget about until November 29th and fling myself forward into a mad dash before the Christmas carols and peppermint everything distracts me entirely.

Without further ado...

Feeling Fall:

The Wishlist

Mood: Overheated and O.J.

american crime story: the people v.s. oj simpson

usa | 2016

10 episodes

available on netflix

Well, now, this is something new.